Dreaming Alone

Sit next to me. Just relax. Let us talk. There is nothing better than this. I wish I could just forget the time while talking to you. Sitting somewhere on a bench, drinking coffee. I wish I could laugh, I wish I could glance at you and smile. I don't need anything grand, I don't believe in fairy tales anymore. All I need are these little things. They make the world more colourful and beautiful.

I stopped answering questions that begin with what if... Theres is no what if. There is here and now. And here and now is completely different. That doesn't mean that I stopped dreaming, no. I just know my place and I dream alone. Nobody can hurt me in my dreams. Nobody can get angry at me there. Nobody can misunderstand.

I'd love to hold you close, tonight and always

I'd love to wake up next to you.

And what is wrong with that? There is a lot of happiness in that scenario, but I'd be content with just sitting and drinking coffee. Taking just 5, maybe 10 minutes of your time, and then just saying bye with a smile. I'm happy when you're happy. I'm used to my role as a supporter. I just need to smile, ensure you that I'm happy, and just forget.

I'm a coward. I wish I had more guts. I wish I did not feel the urge to run away.

I wish people didn't change me.

listening to: Zayn - Pillow Talk