I think that I made a big fuse today. I got my whole family involved in my Great Plan. And all for nothing. The thought of going to Poland was wonderful and it was in my head through the whole day. But now... when I sit in the evening in my room, when I think about it logically, I'm not sure if that's such a good idea. I had hoped that if I go there after Christmas, I'll be able to meet my friends and spend some time with the people that I miss. But then... when I think about my assignments and everything else, I don't know if I want to stress over that. So... if I have to choose between sitting at home alone here, or sitting at home alone there... I think it's quite clear which one is better.
Although it's rather sad that I'm going to be alone here. Forever a home-bird.
But sometimes I get homesick. Especially when I know that I could do something else there instead of sitting at home here. I guess that my lifestyle won't really change. It will stay forever the same. And Poland will have to wait until summer. I will bring my friends this time, I'll go to the parties, I'll make a BBQ and I'll meet the people who are important to me. Or just fun to be with.
Although... I had hoped for some mulled wine at the Main Square in Cracow this year...
...and roasted almonds.
I'd kill for some roasted almonds...
listening to: Sia - Alive
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